- I’ve always been a commercial actor with no intention of pursuing tv or film acting.
- I’ve always taught fitness classes as a “side hustle” to my commercial acting.
- After my heartbreak, I was shaken enough to receive a friend’s referral to her therapist and have been working with her since.
I’ve heard and retold many a story of how “God’s timing is perfect.” Of these, there are countless. From how my pastor’s wife waited until forty for marriage to how she miscarried several times to how now, she is the mother of two adopted newborn twin girls with the man of her dreams is one very real example. There is an often-cited anecdote that people use to demonstrate how God may often be “saving you” from something when seemingly causing a delay in your life. ie: that traffic jam that you’re in could be saving you from that accident up ahead. The final idea is-which is something that I’ve really clung to recently-is the idea that you don’t “define God based on your circumstances; you define your circumstances based on God.” One you’ve decided that “God is good all the time; all the time, God is good,” your circumstances are simply an exercise in faith. This is all easy to say, but I know it’s hard and I’ve been through the bleak moments when I’ve wondered myself. But the breakthroughs will come and when they do, you go ahead and record them and blog about them and keep them around because breakthroughs are testimonies. And now I’mma share mine! I just got out of a very bleak time where I felt, in the most scientific of terms, in a schlump. On the heels of heartbreak, my feelings began to snowball to include loneliness, depression, and an overall absence of joy, energy, and purpose. It was bad, ya’ll. I would put on a happy face and happy energy for just long enough to get through teaching a class or completing an audition – and then I would default to sad clown face. Through this time, I prayed, I read, and I learned a lot. But I was still there, in the winter, emotionally. I started to question my career, city of living – everything went under the microscope for examination during this time of unhappiness as I tried to “get to the root.” Some important pieces of background information: